Present in the Dark

I know, I know…

I preach about mental health and maintaining peace. I must be the world’s most zen.

Never stressing. Never annoyed. Always smiling and glowing.

Please don’t think that way.

I have down days and they tend to linger.

I’m not always smiling and meditating.

Honestly, I end up avoiding meditation when I need it the most.

When the stress gets overwhelming. When the anxiety unpacks its bags preparing to overextend its welcome. I hide. When the truth comes out, I sometimes tend to kick and scream.

I’m saying all of this not for you to pity me. Instead, I’m making this announcement so that I don’t hide from you. I don’t want to only be seen when I’m having a good day. That can be misleading. This is one of the main reasons why I will shout to the rooftops that I AM NOT A GURU. I’m learning right along with you guys, my readers. I go through the tough lessons so that hopefully you won’t have to. And if you already have, then I’m here for you to relate to. Life seems easier with a support system. With people that have been where you are standing and can show you proof that you can make it through. With people that can show you that these feelings are normal. We can set realistic expectations of ourselves, lessening the amount of daily stressors that we face on a daily basis.

-B.well

2 thoughts on “Present in the Dark

  1. Timothy Braswell says:

    Very enlightening. Preach girl! No one is perfect. We need each other like plants need sun light and rain. It is always good to know that we can call someone that we know. Some people that hold our secrets in the vault of there hearts, someone that you can trust. Trust that will never waver whether you’re broke or balling. These are the people you want in your inner circle

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    • B.Well says:

      Honestly, THIS is why my circle is as small as it is. I have to work on my trust with others as I share my art, though. No one is perfect, as you stated. I believe that life gets a bit easier when we know we aren’t alone in the things that we go through. To know that someone else has been through the same thing, takes away from the daily pressure that we put on ourselves to be “perfect” in the eyes of others. We’re all just trying to figure it out one day at a time!

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